I saw something today that inspired me to no end. My graphics have been rather lacking so I’ve been making less. And somewhere in between I had just… lost it. I took one look at this journal that read “Inspiration Thoughts Ideas Things to Remember Super Good stuff”and it made me think…

The entire reason I created my store was to help people say things without having to say them. Show their husands/boyfriends/fiances that they loved em without having to say it. I wanted to give every graphic a piece of me so that I could feel as though I were making a difference. Making a deployment somewhat less painful or make a separation of any sort less agonizing. Try to give something back to all of you who gave me so much when my husband was away from me.

As we’re about to leave South Carolina i’m sad and happy. And I’ve come to learn that as a military wife, everything comes in twos. You learn how to be strong and weak at the same time. you learn how to be happy and sad. Furthermore, you learn this is okay. You learn that no marriage is a normal marriage. You learn that griping doesn’t change a situation, make the situation any better, nor does it really make you feel any better. What you end up with, is a pint of Ben & Jerrys and a Bottle of Hershey’s Syrup a sugar overload and a promise to head to the gym in the morning.

I’ve learned that I can keep a dinner warm for up to an hour before it starts to burn; I can iron 7 uniforms inside of 20 minutes. I’ve discovered waiting can be substituted with work. and work can be substituted with fun once in a while.

It’s within these experiences I’ve found happysad that while I am proud of my husband and the accomplishments he makes I am sad that we often don’t have the time to celebrate them. I’ve discovered that I can be strong to my friends when they require my assistance and support, but inside i ache and worry that they hurt and I cannot help. I’ve discovered that no matter that I think of myself on any given day — someone is still my number one fan.

Yes, I can admit that I haven’t found any “real life” companions in this lifestyle. I find that my friends being scattered across the US… it never stops us from being friends. And while I had thought that it would be very difficult for me to even bother anymore, somehow it didn’t work out that way.

I suppose what I’m trying to say, is… I found my inspiration again...
and that is what it means to be a military wife — in my perspective
have a nice night everyone

This entry was originally posted on my xanga and then again on my myspace page. It seemed fitting to post it here as well. The post was originally made March 22, 2007

Last update : 12/27/2008 08:24 PM

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